My name is Kayle, and I am taking the first step to loving myself.
I am very unhealthy, and most of the time I look it. I have Juvenile Rhemuatoid Arthritis and I am on medications, I also have heart problems and I am seeing a cardiologist later this month, and I had back surgery, and I have psoriasis (having to do with the arthritis.)
I feel very insecure about my body. I am always too thin, because of my medications. And yet with this society, I still feel like I am too fat. I am a size 2.
I get insecure about my skin, because of my psoriasis. My skin gets red and flakey, and honestly looks gross, and people always ask questions.
I get insecure about the scar on my back, going from my neck to my lower back. People always ask questions when I’m changing in the lockerrooms, going into pools, at sleepovers…
-Lady Gaga reference-
But I have to realize I was born this way. And god makes no mistakes. I have these illnesses for a reason. And I know, that in the end, they will make me stronger.
I have been through physical illnesses, mental illnesses such as anxiety and depression, and I am still going strong.
I am beautiful in my way. I am a strong person, and I love myself for that.
